He Has A Plan
By, Lexi K.
When the pandemic hit in the middle of my junior year of high school, I figured it would be over by the time I was a senior. I tried reassuring myself everyday in the hopes that I would be able to have the year I’ve wanted since I was 13 years old. To me, senior year meant I got to be the coolest in the school. To me, senior year meant finally sitting in the front row of football games, having my National Honor Society Induction Ceremony, and being with my friends for the last time. To me, these things were important, but I felt no one around me understood how disappointed I was to miss all of the traditional senior festivities when my senior year began.
I walked into a three person class on my first day of school and frowned behind the mask that hid my sadness. I was angry with God. Every time I walked into the school building I would ask Him, “Why did this pandemic have to happen now?” The classrooms were empty, the hallways were empty, and my heart was empty. I felt unappreciated by my teachers for the four years of hard work I had put in. Where was my drive-by? Where was my poster? Where was my gift basket? I pushed God away and let my worry build up inside of me, resulting in isolation out of fear of contracting Covid-19. While my friends' lives started to go back to normal, I selfishly wanted time to freeze again so I wouldn’t feel so alone, allowing the virus to be bigger than God. “What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul?” Mark 8:36. I was putting my worldly desires before God and permitting them to steer me away from Him. Who was I to fear a virus when I knew that God is greater than all?
On New Year’s Eve I decided that it was time to stop holding grudges because I realized that this year was God’s plan for me all along. I was so preoccupied with trying to fix the senior year that I had planned for, that I was blindsided to the fact that God had a different plan. I started praying again and opened my heart back up to God during this important part of my life, picking a college. I would have daily conversations with God, share my feelings, and pray for direction when I started hearing back from my schools. When I was waitlisted at my top choice school, I felt that Jesus made it clear that I wasn’t meant to go to that college because I wasn’t too upset to receive this news. I was accepted to another school that was always in the back of my mind, so I asked God for a month to show me which college to attend. I was overwhelmed and trusted Jesus on this journey, knowing that in the end, I will end up at the school I was meant to be at. I visited the college I couldn’t stop thinking about and was thrilled with the feeling I got from that trip. I prayed about my commitment and felt that I was making the right decision of spending the next four years of my life at the University of Florida.
After posting about my commitment, I prayed that God would help me find friends and a roommate easily. Sure enough, many girls reached out to me about living arrangements, meet-ups, and getting to know one another. I continued praying to God about a roommate I would feel comfortable with, preferably from New Jersey, so we could fly to Florida together. The first girl to reach out to me asked me to go to lunch because we only lived 20 minutes away from each other in New Jersey... We had so much in common and clicked right away! We even went to a dinner in New York to meet more girls going to the University of Florida. Everything felt right, and I knew that God had heard every single one of my prayers.
This year has taught me that I can’t live without God. Life without Him is dark and lonely. He has a plan for everyone, even when it may not be the one you had hoped for. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 While my senior year had a bumpy start, trusting God and His plan was the right decision! And now, as the world slowly starts to reopen, I get the end of the year senior festivities I always wanted. God knew I would still get my senior prom, senior fashion show, and high school graduation. I will follow God’s path to college! Go Gators! Go God!
Was there ever a time where you didn’t understand the path God was leading you on? How did you react to this?
6/1/2021 11:47:42 am
I'm soooooo proud of you Lexi! You've gone through so much this year and I'm so amazed by God's goodness as he continues to lead you in all things. Truly the best is ahead! So excited for you and your next adventure :)
6/1/2021 02:44:54 pm
Lexi, I love your story because it’s so real. As a young Christian woman it shows in our lives we will have disappointments and troubles. But, God has a plan that is already in motion before we get to the time of graduation. Trusting in him works out for our good in your life. He sees the big picture and you are learning that lesson with each life decision you make with him steering your ship! We are so proud of you and know this is just the intro to your story! God Bless🙏🏻 Love💕Maryxoxo
6/1/2021 10:43:31 pm
I enjoyed reading your story and had very similar thoughts at an earlier crossroads in my life! I was afraid that I might not 'hear God' right and make a mistake in which path I was taking, but he's always with us and wanting to hear from us. Draw close to him and he'll draw close to you...James 4:8.
6/2/2021 12:53:29 pm
Lexi, I'm so incredibly proud of you! Thank you for sharing your story with us. God is amazing and is always there for us even when we don't see him. I'm so happy that you are able to enjoy all of your senior festivities. You've worked so hard in your high school career and earned every bit of your celebrations. I love your last line, Go Gators, Go God. So true. Made me cry. You're going to do so well because God will always be with you. I love you very much. xx
6/10/2021 01:34:11 pm
Indeed, all things good and bad turn out for the best to all those who love and serve Him (Romans 8:28). 2020 has been quite a challenge for most people and we must trust the Lord that He Has a plan. In fact He said to count it all joy when you face various kinds of trials (James 1:2) and this verse has completely turned bad things for the good. The Lord is so faithful and true to His Word! 😍
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