By Terryl Anderson One day last week I was driving to the grocery store in the evening after work. Suddenly, God said, “Terryl, how was your day?” I immediately started sobbing uncontrollably. I had to pull over to the side of the road where I cried and cried (rarely do I cry on the outside for I have learned to keep it bottled inside.) What came flooding back were memories of my family eating dinner in our small dining room when I was 4 through 14 years old. Every night my dad would long complain about his job but, also, he would tell my younger sister, my mom, and me about his round of golf - every single one of his 68-70 golf shots. He would rant and rave for he considered himself the unluckiest man in the world as only his golf ball would always end up in a divot, someone’s footprint in the sand, up against a small twig, etc. (Yet, if you know about golf you know 68, 69, or 70 are very good scores that most men would give anything to shoot even once.) The rest of us were not allowed to talk – not about our day, our week, our friends, our wants, our needs, or our dreams. Except at the end of each meal we would plan who went where the next day (there are no emotions in tomorrow). You see, there was a 5th person at our table every night, her name was SUE – SHUT UP and EAT!! I remember one dinner where my sister (4 years younger) simply sat down and blurted out something that happened at school. I was stunned. “WOW,” I thought, “That’s the way to do it!” However, when I tried the next night I was immediately shut down – SUE! I was shut down so often I lost my own voice. I died inside for I lost ME. By age 15 I kept too busy to eat with the family. I cannot describe the tremendous flood of love and care and deep, deep healing I felt when God Himself asked me, “Terryl, how was your day?” "If my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will take me up." - Psalm 27:10 Abba/Jesus, you are amazingly wonderful!! You know us SO intimately and yet you love when we share every detail of our lives with you. One of your great desires is for us to live healed and whole lives as your children. Thank you! Praise the Lord! God wants to hear about your day.
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April
2/18/2019 02:37:13 pm
Thank you, Terryl for sharing your story. It shows me how personal and intimate God wants to be with us. No matter our surroundings or situation, he is always near and with us. He cares about us too! xx
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2/19/2019 08:40:50 am
Thanks, April, it was all our amazing God! A healing I did not ask for or even know I needed.
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Mary-Beth
2/18/2019 04:43:15 pm
Wow! Terryl I can relate so well to your testimony. It was like I was reading someone’s description of my dinner table at 11,12, or 16 years old. It always amazes me how much we are all so similar. It amazes me how God brings us together closer and closer through each of our stories. And how awesome it is that He is always always listening.
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2/19/2019 08:58:22 am
Thank you, So glad my story spoke to your heart and life, too. God continues to amaze me with His love and care.
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Lisa Samuels
2/18/2019 07:00:31 pm
Hi Terry
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2/19/2019 09:12:10 am
Yes, Lisa, fear is a huge barrier to many things. I wish I had known a loving Heavenly Father in my youth. But, praise the Lord! I know Him now and He knows me - intimately!!
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Oh Terryl, I'm sorry about your dinner table experiences. And so glad you've found your voice because you are unique and special...there is only one you to share the world with. I'm thankful I'm in your world! What a simple and beautiful demonstration of God's love - He sees you, He knows you, He loves you...and He wants to know how is your day ever day.
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2/20/2019 04:17:46 pm
Hi Elise, I'm glad you are in my life too!! I feel very blessed. God has been pouring love into me in many different ways lately and my arms are open wide to receive all of God's gifts.
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Mari Noruzi
2/20/2019 12:38:39 am
Dear Terryl, I too had similar experiences... I was always the last one sitting at the table because I refused to eat my veggies! I wasn’t allowed to speak or make a peep, or move- until my dish was empty! I so wish we had a dog to give all the veggies to under the table! :)) I’m so glad you found peace so many years later, God’s timing is always perfect. Thank the Lord Jesus lives in us and is holding our hand, guiding us. Sending you love.
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2/20/2019 04:28:55 pm
Hi Mari, we do have an amazing God who knows our individual stories and hurts. I pray that God somehow heal your wounds, too, possibly by showing you that you were never eating alone - He was sitting at that table with young Mari. ❤️
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Maria Teresa Guanabara
2/22/2019 01:46:03 pm
Dear Terryl, I’m so sorry you had such a difficult experience growing up and probably received very little love from your dad during those years. I know how traumatic that can be! It can lead to looking for love in all the wrong places which is what happened to me. But the Lord is good and he is faithful and he does bring healing to all of those broken parts of our soul. Thank you Jesus! And thank you Terryl for sharing!!! It’s a beautiful testimony of God’s love and healing power!!
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2/22/2019 08:08:24 pm
M-T, Thanks for your kind words. Yet the tears that began from sadness and loss became tears of joy - that our Heavenly Father's love is SO great that He would reach down and knowingly touch the exact spot that needed love and healing.
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Yvonne Rivera
2/26/2019 09:21:19 am
Hello Terryl,
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2/26/2019 05:24:17 pm
Yes Yvonne, it does encourage us when we hear other women's stories and struggles And testimonies help build each other's faith and trust in Jesus. I know my faith has been strengthened by women who shared their faith stories. Thanks for the encouragement. Terryl
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June
3/14/2019 06:44:29 pm
God is so good, honoring the desires of hearts. Thank you for sharing and for being so honest. Sometimes we are too busy going about our crazy day but HE isnt too busy for us, for you Terryl. Xo June
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