I’m Just Passing Through
By April Sliwak
Can we just say… ahhhhh…. GOOD-BYE 2020.
I think we can all agree that 2020 was the most unusual year we’ve ever had, at least in my lifetime. It was a year of loss, disappointment, and anger. But I’d like to be honest and tell you that on top of all the events and emotions that took place in the world, some of us, including myself, were dealing with added pain of grieving someone close to you. This kind of suffering was new to me and something I’ve never experienced before. Grief is hard.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he saves those whose spirits are crushed. Psalm 34:18
It was a year ago that my father passed away. By God’s grace, we just had a beautiful weekend together doing some of his favorite things; playing cards, eating good food, and telling stories. That evening God called him home. It was shocking and heartbreaking yet as a believer, I felt peaceful. In hindsight, I was so thankful the Lord gave us that last weekend together. Then on a turn of events, (a calendar page), the year 2020 was upon us with all of its uncertainties and loss.
My grief grew and it was all around me. It followed me like a shadow, it was enhanced with every new worldly news event and with the void of family and friends. I didn’t see my mom on Easter, which was hard because it was the first time without my father and without my mother. A family wedding was postponed, family traditions were broken like gathering for Thanksgiving and birthdays. My friends who are so important to me, still haven’t been together in our usual ways. Grief, loss, pain, anger, brokenheartedness, tears. Anybody? Then one day out of the blue in November, my daughter texted me:
But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ. Philippians 3:20
It still brings me to tears as I write this. That was it for me. I snapped out of it and remembered that everything we see through our broken eyes and flesh, is temporary. All of it. I’m passing through this season in history. It doesn’t make the grief less real, just less painful because my hope is in my citizenship in heaven; my permanent home, my everlasting home, without pain and suffering, with my dad, and with Jesus.
How about you? Believer, knowing that our time here is temporary how does this help you to have peace going forward in 2021?
If you want to become a follower of Christ, simply ask the Savior to come into your life, admitting you are a sinner, asking for forgiveness and do your best to turn from your sin. Jesus will live in your heart and you will be a citizen with Him in heaven forever.
I’d love to hear your comments on grief, loss and hope. God loves you.
1/6/2021 01:56:05 pm
1/7/2021 04:28:51 pm
Thank you Susanne for kind words. I love what you said, "what makes you sad almost always makes me sad, too". You're right. Empathy is a wonderful thing. Amen to your prayer! Love, April xx
1/6/2021 02:05:36 pm
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